hmmm

I lost my grant for school, sorta sucks seeing as I was useing that to pay for school. I am relatively sure that I will be able to either redem it or get another one. Not much else happening here at the moment.

A rose without a smell

My Valentiens Day started two days ago when I brought a feather rose, chocolates, and a stuffed frog over to Eric's. (I haven't posted in a while so I met a few new people in the last two and a half months.) He accepted and thought it was sweet, we have been tetering on a relationship for over a month now but have not been able to move forward. The next day he, and several others were being auctioned off for Valentien dates with the proceds going to AIDS research.I had class with Kim that evening( Kim is a friend and my professor whose 24.) She let class out early so the two of us could jet to the Underground cause we were late for the auction and she was being sold. That night didn't end so well.
Today, Eric kept sending me texts and calls, which I found sorta sweet. I decided to no longer look at him as a guy I like but only a friend and I've been trying to think of things that would make it so I wouldn't want a relationship with him.
After class I was forced to head straight to work and after Robert and I closed and I headed to my car, there was a note and rose on my windsheild. As I sat there reading the note, which said that he's thankful I'm in his life, I noticed something about the rose, it was lacking something, not colour but in scent. I got a rose without a smell.

I am Mr. Brightside

I'm bursting under my skin, not to sure why; I think I need some kind of change. I have tried a hair cut, that I now regret, I got another tattoo, and I moved my room around. None of these things seem to keep me solvent and I'm not too sure why. I think that if I change my job I may be satisfied, and safer considering that my boss said that she thinks that the devil is talking to her through her children.
I know how excited I was for school to start but I'm losing my mind again, not as I have done in the past but I need something that I can't put my finger on and It's driving me crazy.
If nothing else, maybe going on that archeological dig this summer to Belize will help.

The Return of the Internet

The internet was reconnected, and I feel inclined to aplogize for the blaten lie that I posted about going too Dogtooth for the free Wi-fi. Not a whole lot has been happening in the last few months, which tends to be a good and bad thing considering that my bordem can lead to activites that may or may not be good for personal health. School started about a month ago and I'm relativly happy with my classes, though I recame to the realization that I am never going to graduate from college cause I keep picking up minors then dropping then when I'm part way through cause I get bored, which leads to the 'Fuck' thought process which can be fun in a weird sorta way.
I also happen to be bored at the moment so I think I am going to possible do some homework or go on a walk though the snow. Both seem like the potential for adventure, well atleast thats what I keep telling myself.