Fuck'n in the bushes

Sorta odd experience. I come home from getting my hair cut ready to jump in the shower and head off to bed when I'm welcomed by my roommates and Dav, Jon's cousin, all watching hard core lesbian porn. The fact that Jane was watching it doesn't disturb me though I do think that they are all alittle perverted for doing so, or I am just a little too conservative to be included in these sort of activities. As the night progressed they switched to male, female, female and animal porn. I found this to be even more disturbing.

Melodramatic Tendencies

Deciding to clear my head I drove up into the mountains outside of Colo Spgs and found my self on a dirt road that seeming went no where but for unknown reasons I kept on driving. The dirt road lead me to the small town of Sandnod, a town no more then 25 minutes or so outside of city limits, and a town that I had never heard of living here for 10 years. Sandnod was quient with small cottages lining the one dirt street that went through this town. I found a general store and my curiosities lead me in side where I found the people to be quite unpleasant. Wondering what happened to the small town mountain hospitality, I was asked who I was visiting by a man at the counter, when I informed him that I was just passing through he told me that I had to leave and that I was not allowed to be in this town. The disturbing looks that I got from everyone else in the store, which consisted of four other people including an elderly woman dragging what appeared to be her grand child out of the store when she realized that I was an outsider, creeped my out. I found the town beautiful, despite the welcoming committee at the store, and decided to snap a few shots with my phone on my quick escape from this odd distorted version of a mountain town with melodramatic tendencies.

A Quick Peep

On my way to this mysterious dome building hidden on the bluffs of the campus I found that the dirt road that soposably went up to this building had been shut down and resembled more of a trial then anything. I was forced to park by the Alpine village and walk a half an hour up to the top. For some reason I had decided to continue wearing my sandals and my socks were covered in prickers by the end of my cold war investigation.
This place was creepyer then it looks in the photos. The camera some how found enough light to take them but I was wondering around an abounded building with no lights, to excited about exploring then realizing that I may need a flash light or something of the sort. A few of the cooler things didn't come out because it was so dark and my cell phone camera does not have a flash. The main room, dome thing, had no front door, or alteast not attached, which allowed light to fill most of that room up. The surrounding rooms and the rooms bellow had little light and as I explored I was half expecting hands to come and grab me out of the darkness and pull me into the curiously large holes in the basement, which looked like quickly dug wells or something large enough to swallow most of my car.
There are books and equipment scattered all over the rooms and debris every where which looks sorta like something happened before it was abounded. I highly doubt this but it fun to imagine the place being haunted due to the tragic way the cement dome thing closed and the reason for leaving behind what must have been atleast thousands of dollars worth of equipment still stored in the facility, though I doubt any of it would really be of any use even if it could still work. So with this adventure coming to a close I'm off to work.

Turn Up the Sun

Midterms have finally come to an end this week. It started with Japanese on Monday, after strenuous studying I arrived on Monday ready to watch my GPA circle the drain. Uncertain of my grade, my mind is partially at ease due to the teacher's reaction to other midterms. She sent several students back to their desks saying she wasn't grading them if they weren't going to try harder, the kicker to this is after accepting Katie's midterm she opened it and laughed.
This morning started out relatively slow with sleeping through Anthropology and barely waking up in time for my Journalism Midterm. I went through my past notes and made sure that I had scan tron which I slipped into my notebook set on the bed then left for school. On my walk to the Columbine building I noticed that I was lacking my notes and test sheet, luckily I was passing the University Center and was able to buy another scan tron.
After the test I learned about a few old buildings that we have on campus. Originally built in the 50s before the University was established, it is a series of large cement domes, towers and metallic panelling. The only thing I really know about it is that is was retired over 20 years ago and I'm sorta intersted in seeing what this place consists of. I'm planning on checking it out and possibly posting pictures if I can figure out how.

Feel the Noise

The last few days have been relatively eventful. It started with regaining my sanity, which I expect to lose again any day now, and starting work at Nemos. I found that, so far, I love my new job; though I will most likely be complaining about it here shortly. It moved on to almost being evicted from my house, which ended with Jon and Jane breaking up yet again then getting back together and Jon decided to go back to Alaska for 6 months before returning for school.
I cleaned the house from top to bottom, which gives me a sort of odd pleasure for reasons that I'm not so sure about but will blame on my anal retentive parents and strange upbringing if asked. After I cleaned, Jon invited his friend Chris over. I enjoyed hanging out with them and Chris seemed to cheer Jon up, though he spent three consecutive days here and the two of them destroyed the house that I had just cleaned and now it's due for another good cleaning.
Last night was the kicker to my last few days. I went to the Q, a local gay bar that I frequently visit since it's the only one not full of creepy old men that try and pick up young guys, because it was Karaoke night and I wanted to see what was going on. I ran into Robbie, we talked for a while before he got up to sing Whiskey Lullaby. Watching him up there I felt something. Not love but something else, I felt a longing, I missed him. And in that moment, though the noise of the crowed bar, I realized that I'm still alive. I can still feel. After Jonny and I broke up 6 months ago I thought that my emotions had died and I was a wandering shell. I realized last night that that is not the case and I thank Robbie for that. Though I still miss him, I enjoy the fact that I am able to find some one that I can miss again. Which may lead to one day being able to find love again. I still think that I am not in the position to have love in my life currently it is nice to think that I may and I am not dead yet, I'm still kicking.

A Bell Will Ring

I really think that I lost my mind. I can't sleep anymore, and when I do I fall asleep randomly like dozing off while standing or cleaning then waking up several hours later some where else doing something odd. I got mad for no reason at all and broke several pieces of furniture and threw out all of the dishes and pots and pans cause I want to smash them, then I kicked the cat. It sounded good at the time. I'm dizzy most of the time and I'm not sure if I'm in a dream or not. I think I may be losing my mind, that's not sarcasm I feel strongly about this assumption and I need to do something soon cause I have no concept of time or obligations.

Little by Little

Headed down to Nemo's coffee house to get some much needed homework done since I yet again missed class because my ability to over sleep. I decided to catch up on my Japanese since I'm slightly behind in my over achievingness of recopying and colour coding selected parts of the text in to my note book, on top of taking notes in class. I ended up having a very nice conversation with Robert, the new assistant manager, about anthropology because he is also an anthropology major at UCCS which lead to JD, the owner, asking me why I'm not yet working there. I decided to apply and see what happens. I would love to work there in the evenings and afternoons, I'm not much of a morning person anymore and most of my mornings are already occupied with school. The theatre also wants me to return to work as a full time manager but I think I'm going to decline, especially if I get the job at Nemos. I am sorta excited about hearing back from them, it would make senses since I spend an enormous amount of time there doing homework and getting caught up on what ever is called to my attention that day.